i wonder when can i find my true self
maybe i'm really shy
maybe i'm an angry person
maybe i'm sad
maybe i'm just clueless
maybe i'm evil
maybe i'm just being lost
i've got so many sides
yet i know all this sides don't belong to me
i've known this all this while
over the years, i've been trying
to change, trying out every single personalilty
seeing if it fits, like trying out shoes for prom
except the right one is never there
i've lost so many
i've gained so many
i need time yet
time does not need me
i've been trying ways to forget
but just forgetting is no use
it would be better if i never knew
it would be better if i never understood
it would be better if i knew all this first